for him who crushed me

For him who crushed me

I wish he knew
What it felt like
To drown from the inside,
To feel the water
Claiming his breath,
The liquid death,
Displacing the air.


I wish he knew
What it felt like
To have the flames
Of utmost humiliation
Lick at his skin
And brand him
An utter fool.


I wish he knew
Then he'd know

How I feel.

cut

Ate a pack of razor blades
Now they're tearing me up
Inside.

Swallowed them when I saw you,
Thought they could help me
Hide.

Thought I could cut my feelings
Hoped they would fall
Away.

Instead of helping me forget you,
They made it worse
Today.

Couldn't look you in the face,
So scared you'd see me
Bleed.

Like even if I was tough and hard,
You'd still know it's you
I Need.